It’s due to a combination of factors. I’m a medical student, I study medicine. Firstly, I’ve recently been caught up in an area of medicine that hasn’t stimulated me in the right way. This deficit has left me feeling tired, that energy has is being lost in undesired directions and that my time isn’t being well spent.
Next, I’ve always enjoyed early mornings. Now, I try and hack my time by playing podcasts when I’m preparing for the day. Between waking up, breakfast, commuting and sleeping I can fit in about 2 hours of podcasts listening, rousing dead time to live time. These podcasts have served the purpose of influencing me in new ways by bringing distant information closer. Furthermore, they have made stark the importance of remembering to enjoy things.
Entering MBBS4 is a step up from MBBS3, as if the numerical increase wasn’t a hint. The increased time spent working for the medical goal has reduced the size of my slice of leisure cake. Leisure doesn’t mean lazy. Leisure means personal development, hobbies, exercise and things that form a persons identity.
So with frustration I am able to say that I have been eating less cake recently.
The enjoyment brought by the podcast has provided a foil against the experience brought by this medical speciality. The world presented by the podcasts seems more shiny and more lush than the world I am working to enter. Rather, the lifestyle is better. This is the dilemma I face.
How does this fit into Wellness?
My personal points:
Podcasts are your friend. Information is your friend.
Medicine is a vast expanse of information, but is still limited and is only medicine. There is more to life than medicine.
Working in a state run system is altruistic, but does it benefit the individual?
Working for medicine is hard work and sometimes you feel lost. I may be feeling like I’ve lost my map. It can only help to talk about it. However, who knows what positives will be brought by a new speciality on my next clinical rotation.